3/11/2017 -
On this day two years ago some things came to a head that changed my world. By the end of the day my marriage was at the beginning of the end. This was a change I knew was necessary, but it was not my timing.
That day I lost a lot of things, including respect, trust, most of my community, and a shared home with my children, but I finally found authenticity. I had become trapped in a facade that I couldn't uphold much longer. If things had not crumbled that day, then it surely would not have been much longer. It was just a matter of time.
But time...
Two years later I'm still struggling with the challenges that were introduced that day, but now the result of the effort is growth and progress rather than sinking deeper into depression and anxiety. Now that I know who I am I can strive to be the best I can be. Now I can build on truth and reality instead of building a fragile facade on a crumbling foundation of lies.
So I'm building. Building me. Building my family. Building relationships. Building my career. Building my future. It's not easy, but it's worth it.
I welcome all those who want to build with me.
P.S. I'm happy to converse privately if you have questions or just want to know more.
Edit 1: I just want to be clear on something that I accidentally left fuzzy: it was my fault. As much as something involving two people can be the fault of one, it was mine.
Edit 2: Also, the biggest lesson I've learned in all this is that I can't judge anyone because I have no idea what they have experienced and there's no way I can know what is right for their life.
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